Score My Heart // Chapter Eighteen

She was obviously a whore, her voice said it all. Oh. And the guy said he loved me... WHAT. TOTAL. BULLSHIT.

“Well I don’t know hun, why don’t you ask your man if he’d like to join you.” I growled into the phone before slamming the phone to Sid’s chest so he could answer his little puck bunny.

By now, my blood was boiling over as I jumped off the counter, stomping into my room, slamming the door behind me, leaving a shocked Sid in the kitchen with his phone in his hand. How could he do this to me? He said he loved me! And I thought he’d meant it. But obviously not, if he had some unfinished business with the slut on the other side of the phone.I flopped down on my bed, angrily. Grabbing my pillow and screaming into it, this time not from excitement but pure fury, anger, frustration, hurt. I felt the tears start to collect in my eyes, and the rising sob stuck in my throat. I quickly swallowed it down. Trying to just forget what had just happened.. Eveything was perfect. Then she called. I could hear Sid’s angry voice coming from the kitchen. It hurt. It hurt way too much. The tears started to fall from my eyes. Fine I’ll cry, but I won’t let one sob out. It was hard, but I kept that sob in. I heard the door knob turn and heard the door creak open as he stepped into my room. “Roxy,” he spoke softly, I heard disappointment in his voice. “Go away.” I said into my pillow. “What did you say?” I heard him ask as I felt the bed move with his weight. I raised my head from the pillow and turned it towards him. I put as much vile into my voice as I could. “Leave me alone. Get. Out. RIGHT NOW.” I said, but my voice betrayed me, breaking. He could see the tears in my eyes and I could see the hurt in his eyes from my words. He put a soft hand on my back. “Roxy, please. Let’s talk.” He was fucking cheating on me and he wanted to TALK!? No way in hell. I just wanted him OUT. I surged up into a sitting position. He pulled his hand away in surprise. My eyes glared at him with such force that he flinched. “Well, Sid. What did you want to talk about?” I said giving him no opportunity to answer. “How about the fact I actually believed that you loved me, and that I actually loved you too. And how much love I felt for you as I kissed you at the door. And how much you hurt me as I heard that bitch’s voice in the phone, you fucking cheating MOTHER FUCKER.” I spat at him. “You lied to me. You said you loved me and you promised me there was no one else! You hurt me. I want to you leave, RIGHT NOW CROSBY!” His expression was full of shock, hurt, and regret. “I didn’t lie to you, Roxy.” He whispered intensely, his whole face was intense, even his eyes. It hurt to look at him. And it hurt more to hear what he said next. “And I do love you.” It hurt ’cause I knew it was a lie. I could feel the tears coming on again and my throat closing in again. I closed my eyes as hard as I could, hoping that the tears would go away, and I swallowed as hard as I could hoping that the sobs wouldn’t come out. “Get out.” I whispered one last final time. And he got it. He had to leave. It hurt even more to hear him get up, I couldn’t bear to watch him walk away. I wish I could just disappear. But my body wouldn’t let me, I was left there listening to his heavy footsteps as he made his was to the front door and out of my life. For now. I didn’t hear anything for a while. I took that as the silence that took place after he had left. I slowly opened my eyes as they started to well up and pour out of my eyes. I started to shake and sniffle as I let out the sob I’ve been holding in. I was shaking so hard, I couldn’t sit straight anymore. Let myself fall into my bed as the tears ran and ran and the shaking conitnued. Then I heard it. The footsteps. He was still here? No, no. NO! I took the first pillow I could reach.. I made my way out my room and I saw him. Standing there. His eyes full pain and agony. He put a hand up in surrender. “Wait..” he started but I cut him, whipping the pillow to his face. “GET OUT.” I screamed at him. I saw the fear in eyes, and I knew it was deffinetly not the fear of losing me and that was what shredded inside of me. “NOW” I screamed again as I just saw him stand there, not knowing what to do. He finally got the point, I didn’t want him here. He bent his head down for a millisecond, I took that as a farewell as he made his way out my front door and out of my life..

Score My Heart // Chapter Seventeen

Sid was on his way here, and I was pacing around my living room, feeling my stomach lurch from side to side as each minute passed by. Usually at this time, if someone did anything as woke me up. Let’s just say you’d find they’re dead body hanging from the ceiling. I’m not even joking. I take my sleep very seriously, and no one messes with it unless they’re asking for a death sentence. But as soon as I heard his voice through the receiver I felt nothing but happy and excited as that silly school girl smile crept on my face. The things this guy makes me feel. He’d told me he loved me over the phone. This was the first time he’d said it, and it was the first time we’d see each other after the little joyful exchange. I don’t know why I felt like this, but I just did. I heard the doorbell ring, I looked up towards the door, not moving.

Go on, open the door, I thought to myself. He’s just the same as he was yesterday.

I paced myself into the bathroom and took a quick look at my reflection in the mirror. My hair was a total mess, my face had that puffiness you got when you woke up, and my eyeliner that I had been to lazy to wipe off yesterday night was smeared all over my face. In the end, to sum up how I looked right now was described in one word. Disgusting. I sighed as I heard the doorbell ring for the second time. Sid was obviously impatient, I smiled to myself. I quickly fluffed my hair one last time and just about sprint to the front door. I turned the knob and bit my lip as I saw him appear from behind the door. Looking stunningly good-looking as ever, with his curly hair falling just over his eyebrows. Oh god. How did I get so lucky. We both had those stupid little kid-gets-a-christmas-present grins on our faces and they would not go away. We both just stood there, until I felt his mouth press down on mine before I could even say hello.

Our smiles slowly disappearing, our eyes never leaving each others. I stood there in my little tank top and little PJ boxer shorts. He broke the stare as his eyes trailed down from my face to my chest. His face grew hot as I caught him staring, looking back at me he gave me an apologetic smile. “Can I come in?” he quietly asked. I don’t know why that just drove me over the edge. Maybe it was the fact that it was four in the morning, or maybe it was the fact he looked adorable in his wrinkled t-shirt and his Reebok sweatpants. I could see the built up muscles in his arms, and all I thought about was how wonderful they’d feel under my hands, or even better. How his abs would feel under my palms. My breathing suddenly started speeding up as my thoughts grew more and more graphic. Sid stood there, looking slightly confused at my reaction, still waiting for me to let him in the apartment. I pushed the door completely aside as I leaped into his arm. This took him off guard, he took a few steps back before regaining his balance. I was still wrapped in his arms, my legs taking they’re places around his waist. My eyes bore into his. “Kiss me, dammit.” I whispered intently. Sid was a little startled, but did as I said and quickly brought his lips closer and closer to mine, until finally they touched. He took it slowly, as I pushed for a bit more. He could feel the urgency behind my mouth. He pulled his face back a bit, but only a good centimetre away. He searched my face. “Roxy, what’s up with you?” he asked slightly confused. “I love you.” I said with intensity as I took his bottom lip between my teeth before I started kissing him, full passion. I could still feel he wasn’t giving his all, so pressed my chest tightly to his. His breath hitched as he sped up the pace that I’ve been anticipating for. Our lips wrestled, our breaths quickening. His hands roaming all over my body, before bringing them to my butt. Squeezing it. I felt him closing the door with his foot, never breaking the kiss he brought me to the kitchen counter. I brought him closer to me, locking my legs tightly behind his back until every inch of him touch mine. By now we were gasping for air. My hands held his face as I tasted every inch of his mouth, while his hands roamed me. His hands trailed from my shoulders down my arm to my hands, bringing them back up as he slowly made his way for my chest between the small space between our bodies. Finally, he placed his hands over my breasts causing him to give me an electric shock. My breath hitched for just a mere second as I stopped kissing him from the intensity of the feeling... Not giving me a chance to breathe, it was his turn to catch my lips. “I love you” he whispered breathily against them. The moment was interrupted by his phone which chose to ring at the most inconvenient of times. We both grumbled. He pulled back as he was about to reach his phone. I took his hand before pulling him back to me, kissing him greedily again. We picked up where we’d left off as the phone kept on ringing. We both ignored it. Finally it had stopped ringing, a relief to the both of us. I pulled my lips form his to catch my breath as his lips never left my skin. Leaving a trail of sweet and electrifying kisses down my jaw to my neck. My breath picking more than before, if it were even possible. I turned my lips to his face. I placed kisses on his cheek, towards his ear. “I say we take this to my room.” I whispered against his skin with a smirk, before placing a kiss on his ear lobe, receiving moan from Sid. I smiled. It was his turn to tease me. He opened his mouth at the base of my neck, letting out a heated breath that raised goosebumps on my arms, leaving tingles in my stomach. He let his tongue out and licked and bit my neck before bringing back his lips to my ear. “I say, that that sounds perfect...” He said as he slid his hands under me, readying to carry me to my room. Unfortunately, that inconvenient phone of his decides to ring right then. We both groaned, irritation was clearly a shared feeling at the moment. I couldn’t take this anymore. I grabbed his phone out of his pocket and pressed the “answer” button. “What?” I said impatiently into the phone. “Babe?” I heard a female voice on the other side. Anger flashed through me, not to mention the shock the left me furious and speechless. Babe? Babe? Was this some kind of joke? “I was thinking that we could continue what we’ve started the other night.” The chick on the other end said in what was a really sad attempt to be seductive. That was IT. He was sleeping with some other whore!?

Oh geez.

I just realized how short that last post really was. Oh god, so sorry. I have more planned, and I'll post it soon.

Score My Heart // Chapter Sixteen

Sorry guys! Super short chapter, but mores on its way!

I groan as I hear the sound of my ringtone going off. It can't be morning already, I thought. I reach for my phone that is set on my bedside table and look at the time. 4 am. I had definitely not set my alarm for 4 am. I flick open my phone gracelessly, forgetting to check who was calling at this time.

"Hello?" I whisper in my groggy early morning voice.

"Hey." I hear someone  whisper through the phone. When I realize it's Sidney, it causes a huge grin to form on my face, "I'm so sorry to wake you." He said quietly.

"Oh, that's okay. I had to wake up in a couple hours anyways." I say, sitting up and flicking on the lamp. "What's up?"

"I just... can't stop thinking about you." Sidney said softly, and I could tell he was embarrassed by his choice of words. "I mean, it's crazy. I don't think I've ever felt this way before." His words took me by shock. And I just sat there, jaw wide open.

"I guess what I'm trying to say is," I heard him take a deep breath, "I love you, Roxanne."

With those words, I couldn't help but feels my face spread into a immense smile.

"I love you too." I managed to whisper, seeing as I was still in shock.

"You mind if I come over?" Sidney asks with a chuckle.

"Now?" I laugh, "Okay."

"I'll see you soon." He said, softly, but obviously excited. I just laughed, said bye, then hung up before throwing my face into my pillow and screaming, repeatedly swatting my feet at the air in happiness. 

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Hey everyone!

A really good friend of mine started a story yesterday. It's a Jonathan Toews one and she's only written a chapter so far, but it's really good. Check it out, it's called || The Way I Loved You ||

http://www.thewayilovedyou19.blogspot.com

Thanks!

-Roxy

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Hey everyone! Just thought I'd let you know that I started a new blog named All I Have. Check it out, it's still in its early stages but I think I can get a relly good story out of that one. It's about Vero and Flower and I hope you like it (:

-Roxy.

Score My Heart // Chapter Fifteen

Before I get into this chapter, I'd like to say something. It goes something like this: WOOOOHOOOOO! PENS BABY! YOU'VE GOT YOUR CUP BOYS. SOOO PROUD OF YOU. <3>

Breathe in, breathe out, I told myself as I stepped out of my car in my black cocktail dress and red pumps. One foot in front of the other, don't trip, you'll look like a dumbass. I smiled weakly at Colby who was dancing his way over to me his arm extended in my direction. 

"Bonsoir, mademoiselle," he said, doing a little curtsy in front of me.

"Je vraiment pense que je vais vomir. Tienez mois, pour l'amour de dieu, je vais tomber dans ces souliers foux. Merde." I muttered to him in my native-tongue, making him gape at me wide-eyed.

"You know, I never got past bonjour, right?" he said, shaking his head.

"Sorry," I mumbled, breathing heavily as I walked into the Lemieux's household.

"Sidney's upstairs, I think. Either that or he's in the kitchen with Nathalie helping her with dinner. He's such an efeminine. You have no idea." Colby said as he crashed down on the couch next to Max who gave me his infamous grin.

"I can tell you're nervous," Max said grinning, "Don't worry about it, I'd be more scared of the girlfriends than Mario."

"Thanks Max," I said, scowling at him.

Just then, I heard a fit of maniacal laughter coming from upstairs. I spun around to see Sidney being chased by Austin with a fork in his hands and a crazy look in his eye. Sidney stopped at the bottom of the staircase and picked Austin up with one hand and swung him over his shoulder. I giggled as he saw me and set Austin down, walking over to me and placing a kiss on the tip of my nose.

"Hello," he said, pushing a lock of hair behind my ear, "You look beautiful tonight."

"Thanks," I said feeling my cheeks turn red. 

"You ready to meet Mario? I'm sure he'll love you." Sidney asked eagerly, taking my hand and directing me to the backroom where I saw two people having a low-key conversation. I gulped and squeezed Sidney's hand harder as Mario turned around to face us, bringing a nauseous feeling to my stomach.

"Relax," Sidney whispered to me, "It's impossible to hate you."

"Mario, I'd like to introduce you to somebody." Sidney said, ushering me in his direction, "This is my girlfriend, Roxanne. Roxy, this is my landlord, Mario and his wife Nathalie."

"I-It's very nice to meet you Monsieur et Madame Lemieux," I said, offering my hand and stuttering.

"Likewise," Mario said, showing a hint of a smile and shaking my hand firmly.

"It's lovely to finally meet you, Roxanne," Nathalie said warmly, pulling me into a hug, "We've heard quite a lot about you."

I turned and raised an eyebrow at Sidney, who was a fluorescent shade of red.

"Well," Mario began, "I'll let you two get back to your party. I hope to be seeing more of you, Roxanne."

"Thank you, sir." I said, spinning around on my heel and rushing with Sidney to plop down on the couch next to Jordan.

"See!" Sidney exclaimed, "You did great."

"If you count acting like a blabbering and stuttering idiot a great thing, then sure." I replied, burying my face into Jordan's shoulder, much to his content.

"Hey, hey, hey." Sidney said, raising my chin off of Jordan's shoulder, "You were great. Believe me. He'll come around, he's just protective of who hangs out with the team. Once he gets to know you more, I'm sure you'll get along fine. Plus, Nathalie seemed to really like you."

I forced a weak smile at Sidney's supposedly encouraging words as I dragged myself off of the couch to go and grab something to drink. I walked into the kitchen and pulled a cup off of the counter and went to get some water, before bumping into a friendly-looking brunette.

"Oh, shit! I'm sorry!" I said as I pulled myself out of her way.

"Oh, that's alright," she said smiling and extending her hand, "I'm Vero." 

"Roxanne." I said, taking her hand in mine and smiling slightly.

"You're the one who ran into Marc at the airport, right?" Vero said, "I've heard  a lot about you from the boys. I think you'll fit in really nicely with everyone here. Sure, some of the other girlfriends will take sometime warming up to you, but you seem quite nice so it shouldn't take too long."

"Aw, thank you! I feel kind of out of place here. I'm still new to this city." I said, "How do you know these guys?"

"Oh, that's my boyfriend," Vero said, pointing in Marc-Andre's direction, causing him to look up and wink at her as she blew a kiss towards him, "We've been together since freshman year."

"Wow," I said, gazing at them. They seemed so in love and right together. Even from 30 feet away.

"Excuse me, I have to get back to my date, but if you'd like, they're playing a game tomorrow, and you could come watch with us. We all stick together, us girlfriends. You'll get to know everyone else, because it seems like none of the other ladies showed up tonight." Vero offered.

"That sounds great! I can't wait," I said excitedly.

"Here's my cell number, call me before the game and I'll tell you where to get your ticket." Vero said, handing me a slip of paper. 

"Thanks so much!" I said, slipping the number into my purse before finding my way over to my lovely boyfriend and pressing my lips down on his hearing a couple cheers and a 'Go Sid'

"Mm, you smell nice," he said, with his face in my hair, "Let's get out of here."

"You just read my mind, Crosby." I said, pecking him on the cheek and grabbing his hand before leading him out of the doors and to my car.